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How r you? I ope you r fine and always in pink of health.. em..today was so bored but I try to manage mysef becoz yesterday, I’ve ignore my frenz. I am scared if thei fel sad or angry witz my behavior, so I tried to make & sow dat I am api. I push mysef to laf and smile, stop ponder. Tak..tak..laf and tak coz it wil elp me 2 get busy and stop thinkin anything else. But somtim I fell and of coz I’ve 2 obey witz my own heart & soal..stop pretendin! Mysef laf 2 mysef. Y ya, I stil kep on and lokin backwards 2 our memoriez… rewind back to my past… actuly I’ve tried 2 kep and find back the pieces of my heart, so I can glue it all back to their shape & pattern althou may be it wil not like de ori one, but at least I’ll ave some spirit 4 mysef, so I can proceed witz my life. But the probs is, I dunno we ave you threw my heart? My heart was misbehaving somwer but where? I’ve neve n wil neve stop thinkin of ya. I do rely2 miz ya. I alwyz pray & wish dat the wind & the rain can send my love and my felin 2 ya so u can fel like me too, but I do realize dat waz so imposible like I am waitin moon drops on my arms…is dat sometin wrong wit me, if I stil chose this journey, I chose not to forget ya.. I made a decision 2 go on wit my life like dis. So miserable ya? Iz I am crazy? I also fel pity wit mysef but no one can help me except mysef… I am seriuzly tel ya, dat I cant. I made so many mistakes wen i waz witz u...too many...but u alwayz 4gave me n said politely “xpe… abang tak marah”... dat word.. touched deeply to my heart…...i know u loved me at that time...but i was stupid enuf.. I said.. “eleh…tanam tebu di pinggir bibir”… den u finaly let me go... nah ko! Rasakan fire tu! waa.. I wan to die dat time.. Coz 4 me, I fel like losing somthin dat so important & precious in my life. Althou I go around dis world, I wil never met such a person like ya. I’ve neve appreciate you, kan? And dat wen you gone…datz why I became wit dis madness… i never take things for granted in my life...and till 2day, dis moment...i miss you...evrytime i think of the times we had...i know..dat i can neve find dat appines again...n i wil cry evrytime i think of it..evrytime you know…emm…ave u throw away me, mysef from your heart and your memory? I fel like dat… don’t you know how much I miss..and plez listen to my hart’s moan.. dat felin rely, truly, deply… hurt me… I’ve tried and forced mysef 2 forget you, but that is de hardest thing 2 do… and honestly… I am not ready yet, to close the diary of our memories.. am I too cruel witz my life… I’ve try 2 persuade mysef…pear.. push yourself… 4get abot dat all..find another world…don’t live in dis gloomy & blue situation. But den.. my swetz memories cried & said… plezz don’t go.. I am your swetz memories.. your sweetheart… I know, if you let me go, it doesn’t means dat u can 4get abot it, but u just pretending… don’t be hypocrite. U stil ned me.. and ya know wat? DatZZZ true… your memory will always lives on..i kept this proms… amir… u’ll always b my heart and soul and I knew dat, u r de sweetest memory in my life… I also don’t like to turn back to de past… because it will hurt me, dat memories like a very sharp knife stabbing mysef. I am nearly die, but I know dat I must go on and move on… but how can I mange 2 do dat? I’ve lost you…